The World Loads as I Move

Experienced cyclists float on their bikes

Rush hour. Haarlemmerplein. On my way to teach.

The tram dings, slightly impatient. Omafiets bells answer. At the red light, everything gathers for a second, then releases. Someone steps in with an agitated dog, it locks onto something from a passing bike and stops. The line holds. Green: pedals answer. Speed rises, then folds into the cadence ahead, like an accordion. It looks effortless, but it’s a constant micro-adjustment.

I’ve always been fascinated by this kind of floating dance.

But now I’m in it. Five years in, I move inside the flow. At some point, I stop watching and realise I’m one of them.

It feels like those procedurally generated games like Minecraft, where the world builds itself just ahead of me. The terrain appears as I move. Obstacles show up a few meters ahead. Just enough.

Enough to keep moving. Enough to not overthink the whole map.

I know the direction. I don’t need the full picture yet.

It unfolds as I go. Or, as I float.

And it feels right to stay with this exact moment. There are many directions, many paths. But I don’t feel pulled by all of them. I don’t need to answer every call.

What I pay attention to draws the path.

Call it predictive processing if you like labels. A constant draft: anticipate, check, adjust. Check again.

Reading Anil Seth helped me put words to it: I don’t see, then think. The brain guesses, then corrects.

What I attend to gains weight. It becomes clearer, more relevant. The rest fades.

So I stay with the few meters in front of me. That’s enough.

In yoga, this falls under Pratyahara.

Pratyahara is when I stop chasing everything that calls for attention.

There will always be distractions. Attention is shaped in small decisions: what I stay with, what I let pass.

So when I ask, “What do I want next?”, I’m not trying to figure everything out anymore.

On the move, like the cyclists, I see what shows up and micro-adjust.

After setting a direction, I keep going.

And things start to organise around it.

More on:

Pratyahara – “One Simple Thing” by Eddie Stern

Consciousness – “Being You” by Anil Seth

Spotify playlist for this article, curated by Lidia Eira

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/35zaFdDsDGp7e7yoBLhXgX?si=Oc_MdmwaQOe461o4_IrhWg&pi=DGzBz2IOQZO7l

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